I get so impatient. I want to create and be relevant and I want to produce things and when one thing doesnt get me there fast enough, I want to move to another and then another. And I stick myself in this cycle of frustration where I set my goals too high and then don't give myself enough time to bring them to fruition.
I want to be relevant. I want to be a leader of a movement and I want to do something that effects the world in a significant way. And each day I dont, I beat myself up for failing again. I know! Such mood swings! Someone please give me some patience!
So safe to say, I havent been writing. I have been working really hard at work to get the promotion. I have also been weaning myself off any foods besides groceries so writing hasnt been at the forefront of my mind. Sorry guys!
Sadly, Im still pretty lost. I dunno what I want. And I just feel so sick today. Maybe I should just keep being creative in -a- direction and then my path will find me. What do you think?
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These thoughts came to mind the moment I read this post.
ReplyDeleteWith every stepping stone you cross toward that ultimate goal, you are achieving that goal.
So, don't beat yourself up for not taking giant steps, celebrate the little ones along the way.
No one said the path has to be straight and narrow, enjoy the twists and turns along the way.
Love you, Auntie, J
The scenic route may always take longer, but it is most definitely the more beautiful, enjoyable one.
ReplyDeleteYou can have some of my patience if you want Kiki, I have more than enough for everyone anyway.
ReplyDelete"Short cuts make long delays" yes I am quoting lord of the rings because in this case it's relevant. Things will probably never be easy, they will be tough and full of obstacles to get in your way and stop you from achieving your dreams. Remember you have people who support you and want to see you succeed so press on and do your best.
Believe in yourself Kiki and believe in me who believes in you.